Current mood:

confused

Oh the surprises life holds for us
So I found out that my mom is a lesbian! Go figure. Or at least she had an affair with a woman when I was about five. This gets a little more complicated. It seems my parents were having some problems in their marriage (incompatable sexual orientations can do that to a marriage). As most good Catholic parents did in the early 70s, however, they decided to stay together for the sake of the children (and to keep my mother's cover intact, no doubt).

After a few years of detente, without sex I'm sure, my dad met a woman. Thus began a very long, very public affair. My mom throughout this whole thing bemoaned the unfaithfulness of my father and played the hapless victim! What a hypocrite. She would sit and talk to me for hours about how mean and insensitive my dad was being. She would even ask me whether or not she should divorce him!

When my parents figured out I was gay, just about the time I turned 13, it was my dad and step-mother who supported me. My mother couldn't deal with my homosexuality and, after a few years of strained relations, stopped talking to me altogether 12 years ago. Incredible!

Now, one might ask why I didn't figure this out sooner. After all, my mom did take apart the car piece by piece when I was in elementary school. And, for at least 15 years, she seemingly didn't have sex with anyone!

So now I'm trying to sort out all my feelings about this.